FINDING BY LOSING
“Then he began to teach them that the Son of Man must undergo great suffering, and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests, and the scribes, and be killed, and after three days rise again. He said all this quite openly. And Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. But turning and looking at his disciples, he rebuked Peter and said, ‘Get behind me, Satan! For you are setting your mind not on divine things but on human things.’ He called the crowd with his disciples, and said to them, ‘If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake, and for the sake of the gospel, will save it.’” (Mk 8: 31-35)
Our Lord rebukes Peter for setting his mind “not on divine things but on human things.” And by “divine things” He means the cross. While Peter wanted Jesus to do the “human thing,” to “save” His life, the Lord had set His mind on giving it away, losing it.
Indeed, today I am called to “lose” myself in self-giving, because this is the path He shows me; It is the puzzling way of the cross, which does not make much sense, on the face of it. It is through giving away and losing that I find, I receive, and I save. I “save” or “make whole” my existence, my being, by coming out of my “self” and its bondage, connecting with God and others in self-offering. It is not in neediness or expectations of others that I am fulfilled, no. In fact that path, of neediness and expectations, brings me frustration and disappointment. So let me set my mind on “divine things” today and lose myself, that I may find. Because “those who lose their life for my sake, and for the sake of the gospel” my Lord promises me, “will save it.”