“When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had been there a long time, he said to him, ‘Do you want to be made well?’” (Jn 5: 6)
This is the question Jesus poses to the paralyzed man, lying at the pool of Bethesda. It’s quite a question, considering the fact that the man had been lying there, powerless to do anything about his condition, for thirty-eight years. Do you “want” healing?
But if I experience stagnation in certain areas, going around in circles with the same sinful routine, and take a closer look at this, I will find that the stagnation does have to do with this question: What do I really “want”? Are other “wants” taking precedence over wanting what Christ wants for me? He wants me to “arise, take up my bed and walk,” as He says to this man at Bethesda; He wants me to get up and carry my cross, despite the small or big defects with which I am challenged. But apparently for some of us, like the man at Bethesda, it might take years and years to grow in this willingness, to embrace the “want” of Christ.
Let me not despair today about areas of stagnation, but ask God to help me grow in willingness, strength, and courage to do His will. Let me also ask for the patience to wait for, and receive, His gifts in His time.